Sorry but after this month ends i am forced to cancel my membership with TPE. Has nothing to do with the site per say  its all about watching my pennies and after the bad beats i took at the borgata today it just reinforces the fact that i have a lot to learn . i am not aggressive enough in pots  or my luck just plainly sucks. I understand the variance issues but obvious after making a few bucks running deep in series tournaments towards the latter part of last year i got suckered into thinking i was a pretty decent player. Whatever profits i made in tournaments  which came to roughly 4k is long gone and then some. One brick after the other . Today i played a 25K GTD   two bullets  First one  lost coin flip AQ to AJ  with blinds going up to $1000 $500 shoved 16BB   A108QK . Slammed the table walked away in a huff and rebought.  Rebuy was even more brutal. Arrogant black dude kept raising me then  stared me down like he knew he had me  with straight on the turn after i hit a set on flop. Had no choice but to shove my depleted stack . Two bullets = $240 in  buy in  Then to add insult to injury got shut out on the 3rd bullet so i ended up using my last $120 on   $1 $2 cash attempting to chase my losses . Didnt work.  Raised with pocket Q’s  asian dude went all in with pocket  A . Set over set after i hit Q and he caught A  his fist pump infuriated me but not so much as two  frat boys semi giggle ”  He just beat your set of Q’s with  Aces.  Shittiest feeling to walk out of a casino feeling like a loser and trust me after 3 bad beats i felt like giving up with this game and all the bullshit associated with it.  Some of you cannot understand how i feel and fire back with insensitive remarks like ” oh it takes practice practice  practice to reach certain level”  Ya know what ? Its easy for some of you that have $250K bankroll or more  and your living expenses are next to nothing.  $360 is alot of money for me and because of these latest losses i am forced to give up the game i enjoy for the time being until i can recoup the losses. Losing is a bitch and trust me its not all about the money but more about no luck and feeling like a down and out loser.  Enjoyed the chat but after March i am done with this site and done with poker until further notice