Hey guys, as the title says, I’m a somewhat new player and I’m having a real hard time, but I’m loving it.. (the game that is)

Long story short: I started playing poker like 6 years ago, and I immediately fell in love with poker,

However, I took real big shots and ended up like -$5,000 in like half a year, while still studying poker through Daniel Negreanu’s poker training site back then. I watched highstakes poker and I read a couple books and I felt I was above the game in skill level.

I lost my job and had a struggle with my economy due to the losses the poker gave me, but still I imagined that some day, I’d be able to win it all back + more, without having much trouble, since “Ah, these bad beats keeps getting me, let’s deposit another couple hundreds to win it back” .. – Alot of players probably have been there at one point, hopefully.

Anyways, I stopped playing poker all together, cus I was honest with myself.. I had a gambling problem.

I still kept up to par with the poker scene, without playing.

Up till last year, I found myself in a new thinking process. “I’m an adult now, I’m more responsible for my actions and will be more carefull not to get into the gambling scene, but I do love playing poker so why not give it another shot” .

I took a more serious approach to the game this time, Started talking to Dutch Boyd and Gripsed for more insight of what I can do, and watched their streams 24/7 whenever they played.

I joined their games and deposited about $100 on stars to have a starting bankroll (no, money aint an issue nowadays).

I watched tons of videoes and read loads of articles on different sites, including twoplustwo(Dont like the site anymore, due to the high amount of negativity. (that’s maybe only my opinion)

I also signed with you guys and immediately realizing my own potentials for the game, I watched videoes 8-10 hours per day, while having a full day job(still have the same job).

But had to suddenly take a break in January due to new appartement, new girlfriend and so on(you know how it goes).

But early this month I finally got back to poker and my girlfriend supports me more than 100% in my advantures, as long as I’ll buy her a new car or something like that (pun intended).

Now to my problem at hand, and probably alot of other players struggle with the same as me.

Even though I keep studying, I usually play 4-6 tables of SnG’s and MTT’s at once without much trouble, and have one of your videoes on my other screen on the go, to be able to listen to something to keep my mind of things(eg playing bad hands in bad positions etc.) I also had strong ADD, so my focus can easily jump from one thing to another, and this is where I seem to struggle the most, I dont really know what to do with this.

I have also lost a little bit of money the past month, and now I’m just gonna be honest and say it as it is.

I’m not good at following BRM (my ADD becomes a problem here, due to the focus problem, and that I’ll happily pay a little more to have some fun)

As you can see on the chart, I’m down about $200 in about the same amount of tournaments,

I do tend to win some nice tournaments from time to time, but I keep playing above my BR.

So now I’m asking, after being dead honest about my past in poker, and now that I’m being more serious about my game.

Is there anyone out there that can help me out to maybe become a break-even, or maybe slight winning player?

What does it take from my side?

no, I do not have a gambling problem anymore, and I know my previous actions have been wrong.

I’d like to take both positive and negative feedback and please criticise me if you find the need to.

I need to learn and you guys are probably the best at doing so at my given time.