I've been playing horribly by my standards (on the felt and off) ever since I was sort of forced to cash in my roll a few months ago. When intertops dropped nearly their entire low-mid schedule (any tournament with more than 1k guaranteed), I couldn't put in nearly the same volume I had put in prior, and made the decision to cash my roll and dedicate myself full time to seeking employment to prevent something like this from ever happening again. I graduated from FSU in the spring (brag) and decided after a few small wins that I would give myself the opportunity to really take my game seriously and go for full time status. I bit the bullet and took 32% on my full lock cashout to try again (beat).

Now that I have meaningful employment as a programmer, I started rebuilding my roll. My biggest goal is building enough results through volume to find a backer for midstakes. Especially after listening to theginger45 talk about not grinding micros when you also probably can decipher the same game but higher up, I have decided this is the right mindset for me. He wasn't exactly referring to playing higher up, but it was certainly about the hindrance playing on your own roll can bring.

I rejoined TPE after getting heads up with killingbird on a merge $11 and realizing I was definitely rusty in the few months since playing full time. I'm pretty sure I went into heads up nearly a 3 to 1 dog. We played for what felt like forever, but I never quite broke the gap and then got super sloppy. Because I have no vacation time to take off more days for family, I spent my holidays studying my own older hh's and then watching tpe vids. I built a stack in wpn's $12k $25 but busted, built a stack in bovada's action hour 5r (holy crap I love playing like 200bb deep with antes) but busted, and built a stack in bovada's 3r for a nice $320 win. It was my first outright win in a really long time. I find getting 3 or 4 handed and just shutting down because I've made it so far, but that's literally where potentially half of the money is!! You can't just stop playing your A-game where the majority of your money is waiting to be had. I read a few articles on chalking up lazy or bad play to variance and I noticed some similarities in myself, so here goes. Bovada has a string of “boxing day” tournaments happening later today that I'm looking forward to grinding after work. If anyone is playing the 5-33's let me know!